November 24 - December 1
As Long As I Live
As long as I live,
one thought will not escape me,
I’ll never be worthy
of the way God blesses me.
During those times
when I doubt the most and
I sink in despair thinking all is lost,
God is the one I am first to blame...
why don’t you help me...
as I call on His name.
Where are You God,
through these current struggles?
Why do you allow me to
You are God and You hold all the power.
Where are You in my neediest of hours?
I need You Lord, I need you right now.
I need You to save me, save me somehow.
Do you hear me Lord as I beg of Your name?
Am I somehow caught in a religious game?
Am I a pawn in some spiritual war...
to once feel God’s love and then no more,
to feel warm with blessings, then suddenly cold,
wondering what I’ve done to be left all alone.
These are the thoughts that I allow to consume me
when I’m deep in depression and my worries are many...
then suddenly again, the Lord comes to save me,
then suddenly again, the Lord comes to save me.
These are the words I have proclaimed repeatedly
because of the ways the Lord has blessed me.
In my times of fear and faithless blasphemy,
thank You Lord for carrying me through
and for granting me mercy when I doubted You.
Who am I to doubt
or even question Your Will?
Who am I Lord...
but Your child still.
Thank You Lord,
time and time again
for holding me tight
and letting me back
into the fold again
after I’ve wandered.
I’ll never be worthy of You,
my heavenly Father,
and this is the one thing
I’ll know as long as I live.
"As Long As I Live" is a poem from the poetic autobiography Role Reversal: Turn Pain Into Power
What makes my books even more unique....
My books are even more unique because they are poetic autobiographies...
individual poems I've woven together to tell my story.
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When you read my books cover to cover, they tell a story. The bonus is that my story is made of individual poems. You can always read your favorites or whichever suits your mood or even need at any given time.